on the RO☆D

2012-02-05T11:26:00.000-08:00

Calc. [jimmythumb]

And so the crossing of our paths is called destiny
Every line and every move just according to script,
Though if you can see sadness inside of my heart,
It's because I'm still not strong enough
One by one all these answers I calculated
Are lining up the same and always saying 'sacrifice'
And the courage I thought that I had back then, is being eaten away

The song that I once sang, the one I gave to you,
Now it's all pain and sorrow, inside a loving refrain
Fly away, with your wings, the wind will take you
Back to that time that we met; on that fateful summer's day

And so the chance of our meeting is called destiny
Every line and every move just according to script,
Maybe if I think of it this way it'll get easier
This feeling of empty loneliness
One by one all these answers I calculated
Are lining up the same but always still contradicted
Wiping away the path I thought I was on, leading to the other side

The song that I once sang, the one I gave to you,
Now it's all pain and sorrow, inside a loving refrain
Fly away, with your wings, the wind will take you
Back to that time that we met; on that fateful summer's day

If my past, my future, both vanish into air,
Will I still be able to freely fly the sky?
If there's one emotion that I should erase
Will I feel better if it's the one that we call 'love'?

Darling, with your ears, your eyes, your heart as well
Everything that you've heard, and seen and felt with them
One day if you'll share with me all you've come to know
Will I find something inside, that helps— me love you better then?

2011-11-10T03:27:00.000-08:00

Nameless Song [DATEKEN]

Lyrics under cut.

All alone in here, this, my room; it's just me
I watch the sun as it slowly sinks down
Loneliness now, suddenly, is overwhelming
So I'll sing a melody...

This song I sing alone, it still has no name
It's all right, it soothes my pain, and so I'll sing again
I'll sing my lonely song aloud for no one to hear
But me, my nameless song...
Nm—

Emptiness in here, this, my room, it's just me

I watch the town as it fades into night

Silence now, suddenly, so overwhelming

Hide behind a melody...

This song I sing alone, it still has no name

It fills this room up, and so I'll sing again,

I'll sing my lonely song aloud for no one to hear

But me, my nameless song...

Nm—

Sweetiex2 [dixie flatline]

2011-10-08T09:21:00.000-07:00

Sweetiex2 [dixie flatline]

Sweetie Sweetie I really care about you
Sweetie Sweetie I'll never let you go

You and I, the space between the two of us
There's something there, a scent of love, a hint of romance
Kiss me, kiss me again, won't you hug me please?
I know it now, not like before, I know about my true heart

Sweetie Sweetie I really care about you
Sweetie Sweetie I'll never let you go

There was a time when I suddenly noticed that
My friend was so sweet and kinda cute as well
Before I knew it I was always watching her
And I said that I longed for her, just a small white lie

So, at first, it started as a silly, joking text
Just a little tease, that's all, I wanted to just make a little fun of you

And somehow now it's—

You and I, in our connected line of sight
Our interlocking gaze it spreads the news of a sweet love
Hold up, just wait; you really do not mind?
The feelings that were kept inside suddenly begin to overflow

Sweetie Sweetie I really care about you
Sweetie Sweetie I'll never let you go

This, as they say, is how the ball began to roll;
The beginnings of this wonderful relationship
Maybe it's me, the one that's really being teased?
Clouding up the meanings of words, so I won't get hurt

Suddenly, they're rolling down your face, those steady tears
"I am just so glad that you decided to come face me honestly,"

And now it won't stop—

You and I, between the hands we're holding tight,
We're passing it onward, one by one, a fever of love,
Softly and gently, touching, whispering
"Tell me everything, I want to know all about, the weakest part of you."

Though one day for certain, a day when the two of us will have to say
"Goodbye, farewell," no matter how bittersweet it is
And surely at that time, what shines deep inside of ourselves will be
That fluttering and pounding heart oh yes, it's the first kiss

Do you remember that?

You and I, the space between the two of us
There's something there, a scent of love, a hint of romance
Kiss me, kiss me again, won't you hug me please?
I know it now, not like before, I know about my true heart

You and I, between our bodies, oh so close,
It's flowing oh so perfectly, this miracle of love
Hold me, tightly; I'll never let you go,
That weakness that you told me of I'll keep it, protect it forever

Sweetie sweeite, I really care about you,
Let's get on together from now okay?
Sweetie sweeite, I'll never let you go
We'll be by each other's sides for always
Sweetie sweetie I really care about you
We're together, for always and ever
Sweetie sweetie I'll never let you go.
Let's take it step by step oh

Leia [yuyoyuppe]

2011-08-19T12:28:00.000-07:00

Leia (piano) [yuyoyuppe]

Let me hear your voice, I'm begging please
Remedy the drowning of my heart
I will paint a scene upon this canvas
Every layer made of lies
Once more...

In the end all I've come to see
Are these endless illusions
"What's the name I should give to it?"
Warm and cold they both feel the same
Laughter haunts a place inside me
So before it destroys me
Today I will lock it away;
The future is painted in shades of grey—

Fantasies that I wanted; abandon all the lies
If you can let me hear you, please raise your voice!

I inlaid the patterns of my soul
With the love from my heart, overflowing
Overlapping ecstacy in your voice
Though the sound is far away
If it takes a shape, a perfect figure
Even if its just to break apart
I don't need to see with these two eyes
Hold me close as darkness takes me
Leia—

Now these endless illusions take
One look at me and laugh sadly
"What's the name I should give to it?"
Echoed words, resounding in shades of grey—

Holding breath just so lightly; eternity stops there
Leaving me to on alone with my despair—

When the ticking of the clock-hands cease
Say goodbye to this world that we know
Praying for a light,, the words are pointless
We both know they have no meaning
Just a little more the laughter comes
Just a little more the prayer flows
Tell me can you hear me where you are
If it's "no" then please just kill me

Let me hear your voice I'm begging please
Remedy the drowning of my heart
I will bury that canvas of lies
Next to you, my loving liar
If there's not a way to leave behind
Any trace existence of our love
Let the fire consume every part of me
Let my life just fade away
Leia—

Hello/How Are You [nanou]

2011-08-06T11:53:00.000-07:00

Hello/How Are You? [nanou]

(Hello)
I opened the window, looked out and said so quietly
(How are you?)
And in this room you see, there's no one but me
(Morning)
The morning comes along, and rain falls down so heavily
(Tick tock)
Would someone use the key and wind me up; won't you please?

(Na-na-na-na-na)

(Hello)
There was this girl I saw back then in an old TV cartoon
(How are you?)
I envied her so much, she was loved by everyone
(Sleeping)
I need to stop this day-dreaming now— 'cause soon I have to get ready
(Crying)
But first I have to hide the left over tears

And; somehow it's now a habit to say 'oh well'
The words that I was told back then suddenly come into my mind
"I don't have any expectations from you anymore."
Well I guess that these days I don't expect much from myself either but please...
For what reason did you need to tell me that?

There's some words, important, that I could almost say out loud
But what came out of my mouth was nothing more than lies
Always wasting words like these, precious words of mine I lose,
and I go on and live my life like this; it still goes on—

Why is silence always hiding what you're feeling?
Is mocking laughter in their voices what you're seeing?
So, you want to be alone is that your meaning?
Say, is that appealing?
And now see me, I'm drowning in a sea called 'confusion'
It hurts so very much, I'm barely even breathing here
What I'd give just to hear someone else's voice
Really, I am so weak...

Ah—

While I try to get ready to fully face the day,
In my sleepy mind these thoughts begin to form;
"Maybe I should just make up excuses and stay home."
Oh come on, I know it's not right, no
I just thought to say it aloud, that's all it is I swear.
I know, I do, so please don't be mad at me

Regardless of whether you are happy or the opposite
the sun will rise over you and equally as cruel
I am at my limit just living life each passing day
And you want more, but what are you still expecting from me?

Why do you keep everything inside you guarded?
And isn't everybody's love just what you wanted?
Who was the first one giving up before it all started?
Have you realised yet?
If there's a time-card made for life
Then I wonder what time is it mine clocks out
Who is it writing out the checks to pay the salary of this, of my life?

Ah—

(Thank you)
I want to say out loud a 'thank you'
(Thank you)
I want to give someone this 'thank you'
(Thank you)
If only for one time, then that would be fine
From the very bottom of my broken heart I want to cry out, sing out loud a big 'thank you' so much

Why is silence always hiding what you're feeling?
Isn't it true you want to know somebody's listening?
Look around you, don't you see that no one is laughing?
Won't you start talking?
No one will understand a thing unless you speak out
Just thinking it will never reach anyone
Troublesome and hopeless things, it's sad but true; that us humans are

Ah—
(Hello/How are you?)

Unhappy Refrain [wowaka]

2011-07-31T12:35:00.000-07:00

Unhappy Refrain [wowaka]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Shotgun and a telecaster—
the words all aligned in rows, unhappy
All alone on the streets of the city
is it true you're scared by the sounds of gunfire?

Sing out louder till my voice just gives out
How much time is it now that I've wasted
Finally you came into my welcoming hands
So I can't very well just let you go free now, can I?

'ONE MAN LIVE, A SHATTERING SUCCESS'
In my head it's all a romantic story
We're all out of ammunition
So can we retrace our steps back from here

Time and time and time again we've picked out
Perfect, perfect, all to our convenience
To indecent living we've all said 'bye bye'
And soon we'll catch our ride out of here, ain't that so?

Dizzy now, gone around, and around, mistakes I made
Won't you please, teach me how, how to turn it all back now
I don't lack for a thing anymore, no more
That so? (That so) That so (That so) That so!

You say it, then is it, oh is it lucky?
After thirty nine seconds turning and skipping on repeat—
I saw it, I saw it! And is it happy?
I can't tell you that I really understand this
Countless, the sounds are piling up now
And neither an end nor a beginning are showing up still
So in short, and all told, there's no point at all
It seems that you are just as clueless as me right?
Looking past the screen, she's falling down again
An upside-down girl, only an adult's world

Shotgun and a telecaster—
There's not a single word left, unlucky
Beat and bruised, it's 'game over'
Hell, what an eyesore, don't you agree?

Falling hard it hurt to get back up, so I gave up on 'one more time'
Rolling on was error on my part— and each time had you rolling in laughter

'ONE MAN LIVE, A SHATTERING SUCCESS'
All this sentimentality post-party
Breaking up, it seems unanimous
So now can we turn ourselves about face?

Sing out louder till my voice just gives out
How much time is it now that I've wasted
Finally you came into my welcoming hands
Now tell me my friend, just how you're holding up

Dreams, no not dreams, nightmares now reocurring
It's the fate of those few who forgot just how to mess up
Begging please make me what what I want
No more! That so, that so, that so?

Why is it, I'm asking, why is it happy?
Wandering lost and empty eyed at four 'o' clock in the morning
Wherever I end up, well is that happy?
But hell this is a trial, so goddamn fatiguing
Why is it, I'm asking, why is it happy?
A road goes on forever, right under my feet here
But even that road is crumbling apart
At any rate you're standing right up in the way

You say it, so is it, oh is it happy?
After thirty nine seconds turning and skipping on repeat—
I saw it, I saw it! And is it lucky?
Funny. 'cause I don't seem to be seeing any reward
Countless, the sounds are piling up now
And neither an end nor a beginning are showing up still
So in short, and all told, there's no point at all
Right then, guess I'll be jumping off right away

Looking past the screen, she's falling down again
An upside-down girl, only an adult's world
And is that...?

M/elody [Tsuji Shion]

2011-06-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

M/elody [Tsuji Shion]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Remember the day you gave me that message
I still hear your voice in my ears
Though day after day now, I'm falling short
I think I finally found what I'm looking for—

But there's something missing still
I don't understand why I can't
Make a song ring out strong and true
Like yours always does

Just a single time is enough,
Before you take my hand in yours,
Ah, it's too late for that...

Melody, it lies inside, every heart, every soul, all those passing by
Melody, inside you it lies
Ah, melody, it's the thing that I've always been searching for
Ah, melody, message

Concerning the future, I'm scared stupid
So much so that now I'm exhausted
I gotta stop that, look forward to tomorrow
"Everything is ok," you said to me

Even though it's always been here,
Even though it's always near me,
I must have lost sight of it
Somewhere along the way—
Now I know that I can take it
Now I've gotta face my fears
Now I'll walk on ahead

Melody, I hear the sound, every heart, every soul, all those passing by
Melody, inside you it lies
Ah, melody, it's the thing that lies deep inside everybody
Ah, melody, message

Oh, oh—
Is it right or left? Or is it black or white?
Time and time again I've always been confused
Didn't even realise the thing was right in front of me
Oh, oh—
Is it right or left? Or is it white or black?
Time and time again I've always been searching
And now you hear it, reaching out this song to you, dear

Ah, melody, I'll show them all every heart, every soul, all those passing by
Melody, it's for you, my dear
Ah, melody— starting now can you hear, can you hear my voice
Ah, melody, message...

Doo-du-du-du-du melody etc.

Shinkai Summit [deco*27]

2011-06-28T07:59:00.000-07:00

Shinkai Summit [deco*27]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Surely such a great height terrifies me eh-eh-eh

Surely the sky above will distract me hey, hey

All along you were still just focusing on the feelings
That are so old they've faded black and white
However surely now the ocean of the deepest part
Of my heart is drowning itself—
"What will you do?"

Now no longer holding on my imitation grasp is gone
I'm watching you and I know
That I was always just a chain tied tightly round your two bare feet
From here, this height goes on ahead—

All the pain inflicted on me shows up on my face
So beautiful, so beautiful
Just how many times is it that you've hurt me?
"Don't think 'bout stopping now."

Tell me I'm listening, can you certify how things ended up exactly like this?
Just stop now—
Shut up, just shut up I can't take it,
Even if I hold back these words it won't change a damn thing
Because we're one—

Now you're holding onto me, I get back to my feet once more
You're watching me and I know
You only help me to repeat and bring me right back down again
"Say do you really love me still?"

One more time, one more time, I hold my breath in
You reach out for my hand to pull me back to you over again
One more time, this time, I'll stand up by myself
And I'll be the only one to make it out of here alive

You're still trying to hold on, but for the first time I'm relieved
You fall away and I'm free
And though once upon a time I was dazzled by your blinding light
It's just plain stupid
Now maybe the me you can see
Can live and be and stay that way,
Rather, it's certain.
So I'll say it, thanks to you, I'm shadowing your steps, my love
Just watch this is forever—

Last Night, Good Night [kz]

2011-06-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

Last Night, Good Night [kz]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Soundly asleep, and dreaming peacefully,
You are there, right next to me
Though I don't know, about the overflowing tears,
That run free, down my face

For so long I have hidden the pain
Piercing through my heart until nothing remains—

Last Night, Good Night
Last Night, Good Night
Till morning comes, I'll hold your hand,
I'll hold it tight and fall asleep,
Sweet dreams, good night.

Won't it be nice, if even only one more time,
Together, watch the sun rise
Not much to ask, and I can't help but it's heard,
And my wish becomes a miracle,

Though I speak, I haven't said a thing,
So how can I think about goodbyes now—

Last Night, Good Night,
Last Night, Good Night,
Even if my voice fades away,
The melody will always sing,
Last Night, Good Night,
Last Night, Good Night,
I lose myself so deep in thought,
About the day when it all ends,
That's when I wish upon a star,
That though I'm gone, you'll always smile
Sweet dreams, good night.♥

Matryoshka [hachi-p]

2011-06-28T07:43:00.000-07:00

Matryoshka [hachi-p]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Too long I've thought about this message,
But maybe it'll reach somebody who can say.
Most certainly I've always been this way
A patched up back together, crazy Matryoshka!

My headache split apart into this package
Time still ticks away but the hands are stuck at four
Don't tell a soul and keep it to yourself
The world spinning around and round will fall right on its head

Aah, I broke apart again
How about you throw out all of your memories too?
Aah, how I want to know
All the way deep down

Um well hey,
Don't stop dancing, dance a little more,
Kalinka, Malinka,
Just play the damn chord
All these feelings, so confusing
Won't you help me, please tell me what to do.
Loud and clear, sir
5 2 4
Freud, Keloid
Just hit the damn key
Ha ha ha, let's laugh at everything
Dance now, just like the idiot you are.

Clap your hands and pretend you're not a child,
Keep yourself in time with this crazy little tune
Most certainly I still don't care either way
Shivering as all the warm air seems to melt away

How about you and me have a rendezvous, a rendezvous, or a rendezvous,
Or adventuring with only hop-hopping,
With a crooked gait we march one two, one two

Ah, bursting at the seams,
Make sure that you catch every part of me
Ah, with both your hands,
Please catch me for me

Um, well, hey
Listen now, I've got something to say
Kalinka, Malinka,
Just pinch my cheek now,
Goodness gracious I can't control me,
should we do another few fantastic things?
Ow it hurts but don't you shed a tear,
Parade, Marade,
Just clap your hands more
Wait, you cry out, wait up, wait up!
Before the two of us drop down to one.

How about you and me have a rendezvous, a rendezvous, or a rendezvous,
Or adventuring with only hop-hopping,
With a crooked gait we march one two, one two

Yoi, yoi
Are you feeling sick?
Yoi, yoi
Won't you sing for me?
Yoi, yoi
See how for today, I'm still a crazy Matryoshka

Hey, hey, hey
Don't stop dancing, dance a little more
Kalinka, Malinka,
Just play the damn chord
All these feelings, so confusing
Won't you help me please tell me what to do—
Loud and clear, sir
5 2 4
Freud, Keloid
Just hit the damn key,
Ha ha ha let's laugh at everything
Stop now, your dancing must come to an end!

Chu chu chu chu chu wa-ee-aah etc.

Hope [yuyoyuppe]

2011-06-28T07:38:00.000-07:00

Hope [yuyoyuppe]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Where am I now, everything is black and white here
All I want is to see you again, I can't stop these tears from falling
Brutal, violent memories in my heart are locked somewhere there safe
And the voice I hear struggling is silent too—

Honestly I thought that happiness like this was, like ours was,
Was meant to last forever—
I lost you, my light in the darkness, now endless, sleepless nights fall on me, all I have—

I can still recall the look of your smile
Tenderness you shared made it all worthwhile
And now I hold it dear, keep it close to mind
That smile you gave me is for all time now—

Aah— [scream]

Happiness gone, but I'm alive, I'm here and yes while those new lives are born
Some people die, I can never see you again, my light in the darkness, I know you're gone

I can still recall the look of your smile
Tenderness you shared made it all worthwhile
And now I hold it dear, keep it close to mind
That smile you gave me is for all time now—

Two Breaths Walking [deco*27]

2011-06-28T07:23:00.000-07:00

Two Breaths Walking [deco*27]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

In my continuing evolution this is just the first page in my story—

Because I want to hold you tight,
I'll walk and walk with all my might
And because sometimes I feel alone
I try to time my breath with yours

"Hey, mama, guess what, I found this someone that I really like!"
"Oh, is that so?"

Let's meet again;
By now, I wonder, wonder, who, just who's been watching over you, oh
And did you memorise those lines, did you learn your words yet?

Papa, mama, Mr. Bear
Thank you for the love you shared
Now I've got to go ahead
But wait, something's not right

The same feet that I stepped out with back then have changed
The feet I used to reach your stage
Somehow now they're starting to hurt you I see the pain you feel and
Is it these? Is it those?
Brand new words that we learnt long ago
Cutting you deep, like a knife
Is it tearing up your life?

Please I'll make it right,
Before I pull out the knife
I'll take a single deep breath, and then close my eyes,
And then I'll press your lips to mine—

And in this kiss
You live, by breathing, breathing me, my air
You're living by my breath, and now, the words that hurt you once
Are gone, melted between our silent mouths—

Hey, I feel, I feel you breathing with me dear,
It's tentative but true, I hear, I hear you saying those three words
I love you, I love you
If you're going to do that, then synchronise your breath with mine
Don't drop a beat, we'll keep in time as you listen to my words now

Kimi = Hana [pigstar]

2011-06-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

Kimi = Hana [pigstar]

(Lyrics under the cut.)

Take this hand, don't ever let it go, don't ever let it go,
Because I'll be waiting right by your side
So darling, no matter when
Please just smile, please just smile,
The flower between us will bloom

Do you remember the one you loved
More than any other there was?
Well this morning with a small thorn it awoke
Blooming with the dawn

And now I don't know if I should
Hold it close to my heart and protect
This flower standing so strong and all alone
Because it resembles you

Gentleness that I know surrounds me
It's so close it's starting to hurt
I can't stop this feeling overflowing within me,
'cause you and the warmth of your falling tears know

I'm yearning just to see you next to me, see you next to me
Baby if you are still feeling all alone
Even though we're standing right here
We'll keep our hands clasped tightly until the loneliness goes
Take this hand, don't ever let it go, don't ever let it go,
Because I'll be waiting right by your side
So darling, no matter when
Please just smile, please just smile,
The flower between us will bloom

If you will turn your gaze up above
And grant the stars the gift of your smile
Then just looking up at the sky I know
Will make me feel complete

And now it seems to be
Even the smallest of things I'll hold dear,
Because that flower you said that you loved,
Has bloomed within me, deep down in my heart

I'm yearning just to see you next to me, see you next to me
Baby if you are still feeling all alone
Even though we're standing right here
We'll keep our hands clasped tightly until the loneliness goes
Take this hand, don't ever let it go, don't ever let it go,
Because I'll be waiting right by your side
So darling, no matter when
You can smile, even cry
You know I will be here with you

And if there's no rain to fall
And gently it starts to face
One day that small thorn, slowly
Will dull its protective edge
Once again it is that strong flower
Standing all alone
And now that small thorn we knew doesn't hurt
So darling, darling, don't cry anymore

Take this hand, I'll never let it go, I'll never let it go
Baby if you are still feeling all alone
Even though we're standing right here
We'll keep our hands clasped tightly until the loneliness goes
Even if that thorn can hurt me now, tries to hurt me now
I promise that I will never let go